its for you, you s.o.b., the one guy i love!!!

ohk... this ain't easy for me... not a bit!
you are the base of all my thoughts, the reason i always feel like I'm chained! why the hell can't you just understand the hang of things?! you know i love you, you know I'm crazy about you and you know that my world revolves around you....
ah what the fuck!!! that's bullshit...
you know what, you're an asshole... screwing around with my life !
well, I'm deviating from the topic... never love a guy! they are all assholes... they know you love 'em, and keep on pretending like they don't know... we know better- they ain't that dumb! at times they care for you so much, pamper you like a baby, make you feel so special, that you feel like you are the luckiest girl alive and the very next day, hey make you cry( i mean crying, not moaning ;) )
why the fuck do you have to pretend like you're a saint or something, eh?? can't you just spit your feelings instead of keep me hanging on a thread that's gonna break any minute?!
tell you what, i hate you....
and i so bloody wish that those words were true....