she misses him... all of a sudden... all those make-over of mind, moving on and what not, seems meaningless now... she still cares... and at times she misses him terribly!
everyday morning, she anxiously checks her inbox, expecting a message(?!) and watches out all the time, maybe a missed call...?!
she wonders... is she bad enough to repell him like this? or is it 'cause he found something new, something more interesting? or maybe he's just irritated with her and is takin time off to cool off?!
but something tells her that he isn't gonna come back... and evertime she thinks of that, somewhere, deep down inside her heart, something pains... terribly!
she hates this... she hates him and she she hates herself more... every passing second seems like a lifetime...
she regrets... she regrets irritating him, she regrets picking the fight, she regrets irritaing him even more... she regrets not apologsing properly, eventhough it wasn't entirely her mistake. but then, for him, she's ready to take the pain, ready to bear the burden... anything for him- thats her...
will he ever understand? the depth of her love? the pain his silence is causing?
she is lost in thoughts... why him? inspite of knowing everyhting? she wonders, why hope that he would ccome back, someday, oneday....
she cries silently... she can't bear the pain anymore... but again, she'll take all the blame... thats how she is...
'cause he means the world to her...
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